Cross-posted from my livejournal:
Wow, it's been a while. So i'm working on updating this and my blogspot blog a bit more, and maybe i'll take a page from gina's book, though i won't do the entire blog revitalization plan. The first day of it, though, was an introduction. i was thinking about how much that introduction has changed since i first opened this account. So here is who i think i am now. it's not who i used to think i'd be at this age, necessarily. but so much of me is the same. and i'm happy with how it is:
Soon i'll be 31, i'm female, brown hair, brown eyes, short-ish and not nearly so athletic as i once was and hope to be again. That stuff hasn't changed much, except perhaps for the less athletic bit. i'm more of a housewife now than i used to be, though in my honest moments i can admit that i'm not very good at this housewife thing. i live at home with my brother and my mom. mom has some health issues, which is why i live at home, at least partially. people talk all the time about how brave, or good, or courageous this makes me. really, it doesn't. your parents take care of you, you take care of them. that's the way it should be- and i think it's the way God wants it, at least as long as you can do it. i'm tired of people lecturing me about giving up my life, sacrificing my happiness, yadda, yadda, yadda. i haven't received this lecture in a while, but it hasn't, i imagine, gone entirely away. this is my choice, and i'm excessively happy with it. so keep your opinions to yourself kindly. thanks. so i guess you could call me a caregiver, but thank and praise God!!!!!!! (for all!!!!!!!) that mom's been doing really well for a while now, she really isn't declining much if at all, and so let's just say i'm not a caregiver i'm a daughter.
i'm also a mite bit ocd. okay, maybe more than a mite bit. i'm okay with that though. God is amazing! He gets me through everything, and He made me who i am, and i'm grateful to Him. it's been a while since i've had a major anxiety issue too. So really, thank God!, mentally i've been very well adjusted. :OD.
i'm an instructor now at a workforce development center. recently my boss offered to steal me away for full-time grantwriting. i began to fear, while very excited about this, that i would miss my classroom. God came through again, praise Him! the current plan is for me to do half-time, once i talked to the boss about it. So, Lord willing, in the next few weeks i'll be able to say that i'm both an instructor and a development specialist. much love. i've my master's in social work, my bachelor's in english, my secondary english certification, and i'm currently pursuing my social work license. praise God!
oh, i'm a reporter too, at night. it's a good job, covering police reports, municipal meetings, and school boards.
i used to be very into fencing, but i've sadly fallen out of that as well. it's on that list of things i want to do again some day. running, fencing, clarinet playing,..... but i'm happy with how i am.
i used to be very into the sca. our local barony got way raunchy, however, etc., and my priorities just changed. that's on the list of things i may want to do again some day. for now lurking at times suits me just fine.
my social life went down somewhat a while back. it was probably a few months before i realized how little i missed it. funny how growing up changes you.
my love life is back to zero. e. eventually gave up on us, which hurt for a bit because he did it rather abruptly to my mind, but i'm grateful and see how that was for the best too. i'm currently, at least in word, endeavoring to wait for the guy (if any) God has for me. in the meantime i thank Him for His being there, and for my brother's living at home. you know, he can help sometimes with guy things, etc.
you may have noticed i'm a bit religious. Christian, baptist by denomination, but i call myself a liberal conservative. God is at the center of my life, or He should be. He is wonderful to me! He is the only way to salvation. He is the only reason i've gotten as far as i have. i get tired of people lecturing me about my religion, and how i spend too much time at church with youth group, sunday school, and missions board. they don't seem to realize that for me, my beliefs are integral.
